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Wednesday, December 27, 2006
SAYANG
Sayang, so you were scolded this morning. Why are you still finding it so hard to tell me? Why do you have to keep saying "nothing" when there's obviously something wrong? You know how much I hate it. And when you just hung up on me like that, my heart just sank. I was so heartbroken. I was so worried. I guess thats why my chest hurts so much. I'm very sorry for worrying you so much. I'm very very sorry.
I'm very very scared. I really dunno why my chest hurts so much. But I'm very scared that... Sayang, pls dun do this to me anymore. I'm so sorry, but I'm very scared that one day, the pain will lead to something else. I'm very scared.
Sayang, please. Please let this be the very very very very last time. You have promised me this countless times before. Please let this be the very last...
I'm not blaming you for anything. I'm not angry with you also. Because I love you sayang. I love you so much. Thats why it hurts me so much everytime you are like this. Sometimes, I just feel so useless. Not being able to do anything to help you at all. Sorry...
Please, please just let me know. Its ok de. Thats what I'm here for. You don't have to worry that I'll get worried. In fact, I'll worry even more if you don't tell me anything. Sayang, please. You can tell me anything. Its not like in the past already, I'll always be here for you.
Just looked at the mirror, think there'll be some nasty bruises on my chest tomorrow. Feeling very giddy now. Having a bad headache also. Dunno why...
Sayang, dun say sorry and dun cry. Its not your fault.
Sayang, I love you.
forever loving you...
5:46 pm
Sunday, December 24, 2006
happy
feeling so happy now...
after talking to you on the phone...
now i cant wait to see you...
love you so much sayang...
*muacks*
forever loving you...
9:48 am
received your call...
yeah!!
feel so good finally hearing your voice again...
love you so much...
*muacks*
forever loving you...
7:05 am
stupid alarm
stupid alarm...
was waiting anxiously le...
then suddenly the alarm...
tot it was you...
my heart almost skipped a beat...
too excited...
love you so much sayang...
forever loving you...
6:16 am
cute!!!

forever loving you...
6:03 am
waitin
waiting by my phone...
waiting for it to ring...
anxious to hear your voice...
anxious and excited...
love you so much so much sayang...
cant wait to see you later today...
love you sayang...
*muacks*
forever loving you...
6:00 am
232
232 posts...
sorry sayang...
sorry...
forever loving you...
5:58 am
no calls yet
no call from you yet...
starting to wonder if my phone is working again...
anxious...
cant wait to hear your voice...
love you so much sayang...
just hearing your voice would make my day...
love you forever...
*MUACKS*
forever loving you...
5:56 am
You're back!!
Got your msg...
you are back!!!
yes!!!
now i'm just waiting for you to reach home...
so that you can call me...
so that i can hear your voice finally...
anxious...
forever loving you...
5:26 am
home
5.17am le...
have you arrived?
staring at teletext now...
but they not showing any info for your flight...
argh...
pls make a sound soon phone...
is my phone working?
forever loving you...
5:17 am
sending dad to work
sending my dad to work now...
bringing both phone with me...
in case you arrive early...
love you sayang...
love you lots...
forever loving you...
4:52 am
ONE 1 SATU
One more hour!!!
Argh...
Mr Time, can you move any faster?
I'm really missing my sayang a lot le...
Can you move faster so that I can see her again?
Argh!!!
forever loving you...
4:20 am
cant believe it
i cant believe myself...
how could i fall asleep...
argh...
sorry sayang...
promise to wait by the phone...
but i fell asleep...
argh...
sorry...
*sobs*
forever loving you...
4:08 am
2
2 more hrs...
Santa, can i have the remote control from Click?
i just want to ffwd till i meet sayang...
then i will return it back to you...
pls... pls... pls...
forever loving you...
3:20 am
forced
forced to go to sleep...
argh...
but i wont be sleeping...
will be waiting by my phone for THE MSG...
forever loving you...
2:46 am
finish
finish reading the newspaper le...
nothing to do again...
nvm...
will continue to pray for your safety sayang...
love you lots...
forever loving you...
2:41 am
prayer

Pls return my Sayang to me safely...
Pls protect my Sayang from all harm...
Pls bless my Sayang...
Pls make the wait shorter...
Pls...
I love her so much...
I dun wan anything to happen to her...
Pls...
I'm begging you...
forever loving you...
2:32 am
3 more hrs



3 more agonising hours...
the wait is killing me...
argh!!!
forever loving you...
2:20 am
LS-ed
just ls...
hm... everytime i have steamboat...
sure LS...
wonder whats wrong...
forever loving you...
2:02 am
reading
reading past day newspaper to pass time...
time just seems to crawl by more and more slowly...
argh...
forever loving you...
1:45 am
shaved
just shaved myself clean...
so that when i see you later...
i'll look neat...
love you sayang...
love you so much...
love you forever...
forever loving you...
1:27 am
four
4 more hours...
thats all i have to wait says my sis...
to me it seems like forever...
it so torturous...
mssing you like crazy now...
forever loving you...
1:20 am
done eating
just finished eating...
haiz... too bad not eating with you...
miss you sayang...
praying that you'll come back to me safely...
love you lots...
forever loving you...
1:15 am
seems like gonna rain

hm...
seems like its gonna rain soon...
how nice...
on a night like this...
when i missing you like crazy...
ARGH!!!
forever loving you...
1:00 am
5 hrs
(taking a break from makan to type this entry)
1220am le...
5 more hrs...
time just seem so slow whenever you are looking forward to something...
argh...
its killing me...
dying to see you sayang...
dying to hear you sayang...
dying to hold you sayang...
love you lots...
*muacks*
SAYANG, I LOVE YOU!!!
forever loving you...
12:20 am
bathe le
just bathed...
feeling a bit hungry...
decided i'm going to eat afterall...
sayang, really cant wait for you to be back...
missing you like crazy...
love you lots...
forever loving you...
12:07 am
bathe
going to bathe now...
will be thinking of you all the while...
remembering the times...
love you sayang...
*muacks*
forever loving you...
12:00 am
Saturday, December 23, 2006
end of day 7
7 days...
168 hrs...
10080 mins...
604800 secs...
not a single second passed by without you on my mind...
really missing you a lot a lot sayang...
really cant wait to see you...
love you so much so much...
*muacks*
I LOVE YOU!!!
forever loving you...
11:58 pm
pray
said a little prayer just now...
praying to god for your safe return...
dowan anything to happen to you...
cant imagine what will happen to me if...
*touch wood*
love you sayang...
cant wait to see you...
*muacks*
forever loving you...
11:53 pm
at last
at last you replied...
'boarding' you said...
you know how much this word relieved me...
was very very worried just now...
getting worried again...
cos you are taking a plane...
wont be able to sleep...
will be praying for you all the while...
love you lots sayang...
love you forever...
forever loving you...
11:46 pm
worried
sms-ed you...
but no reply...
so i tried to give you miss call...
but cant get through to you...
really really very very worried now...
wondering whats wrong...
*sobs*
forever loving you...
11:43 pm
getting worried
no motion from my hp yet...
you should be boarding the plane le...
yet still no msg from you...
wondering whats wrong...
getting a bit worried...
forever loving you...
11:28 pm
6...
1120pm le...
6 more hours...
the wait is really killing me...
how i wish i can fast forward time...
so that i can see you sooner...
miss you sayang...
miss you dearly...
love you...
forever loving you...
11:20 pm
watching man u
watching man u now...
not really interested...
feeling kinda excited...
cos you are coming back...
cant wait to see you...
miss you too much already...
love you lots...
forever loving you...
11:12 pm
they left
finally they left my house...
luckily, i dun need to send them to MRT station...
feeling kinda lazy...
hehe...
miss you sayang...
love you lots...
cant wait to see you...
forever loving you...
11:10 pm
tummy ache
argh...
tummy ache...
think its the coffee...
gtg...
*ouch*
forever loving you...
10:58 pm
walk again
went down again...
to put the night parking coupon...
msged you but no reply yet...
took a walk downstairs...
feeling very very lonely and excited...
sianz...
cant wait to see you sayang...
missing you like crazy...
*muacks*
love you...
forever loving you...
10:51 pm
7 hrs...
7 hrs...
420 mins...
25200 secs...
thats how long i have to wait before i can fully relax myself...
really cant wait to see you again sayang...
love you lots...
*muacks*
miss you...
forever loving you...
10:18 pm
200...
200th post...
200 since you are gone...
thats how much i love you...
thats how much i miss you...
dunno why i just want you to know whatever was happening to me this few days...
dunno why...
sorry if you are shocked at the amount of crap...
sorry if you have to waste a lot of time reading them...
sorry...
i love you...
forever loving you...
10:10 pm
game
played the capcom puzzle fighter game again...
was bored...
totally nothing to do...
missing you like crazy now...
esp when you are coming back soon and yet time is still climbing so slowly...
argh...
forever loving you...
10:00 pm
coffee plus cocoa
made myself a cup of my coffee plus cocoa...
really getting a hang of how to make it real nice...
dun feel like having dinner yet...
still feeling very very full...
feeling very very excited now...
getting closer to the time you are returning to me...
love you lots sayang...
forever loving you...
9:29 pm
8...
8 more hours...
i cant believe it...
time is going by so slowly...
argh!!!
why?!?!?!
i really cant wait to see you sayang...
forever loving you...
9:20 pm
toy story
watching toy story now...
kinda like one of the lines inside...
"To infinity and beyond..."
just like our love...
lasting forever...
neverending...
forever strong...
I LOVE YOU SAYANG...
forever loving you...
8:38 pm
a peek from the tigers...



they are missing their mommy lots...
me too...
love you..
forever loving you...
8:22 pm
i look like...
had a "facial" today...
was trying to get rid of all the dead skin on my face...
took some photos...
dun you think i look like i'm from some african tribe?

forever loving you...
8:19 pm
stoning
staring at my com...
and having no idea what to do...
sian...
stoning...
forever loving you...
8:16 pm
192
192...
kinda scary...
didnt know that i actually enter so much entries these few days...
maybe i was just trying to keep myself occupied...
sorry sayang...
sorry for giving you so much nonsense to read...
sorry...
forever loving you...
8:08 pm
went for a walk
went for a walk downstairs... kinda...
went to put the coupon for tonight...
haven't buy the season parking yet...
walk around the void deck a bit...
trying to search for some wood pieces...
the wood pieces that you are looking for...
you see...
whatever i do...
i'm thinking of you...
you are always on my mind...
love you lots sayang...
i really do...
just want to be with you forever...
only you...
no one else...
forever loving you...
8:04 pm
feel
feel like going for a drive...
but i know for sure my dad wont allow...
haiz...
why are you moving so slow?
cant you just move a bit faster?
stupid time...
forever loving you...
7:52 pm
lonely...
feeling kinda lonely now...
parents and 2nd sis having dinner now...
1st sis and friends playing and chit-chatting...
left me... lonely and no one to talk to...
really missing you now...
haiz...
*sobs*
forever loving you...
7:44 pm
going crazy
looking at my sis having fun with her friends is driving me crazy...
missing you like crazy now sayang...
how i wish i'm with you now...
why is time crawling by so slowly?
haiz... really missing you like crazy...
love you lots sayang...
forever loving you...
7:37 pm
10hrs
7.20pm...
10 more hours and you'll be back...
getting all excited just at the thought of it...
love you sayang...
wondering what are you doing right now...
wondering if you are as excited as me now...
love you lots sayang...
love you forever...
*muacks*
forever loving you...
7:20 pm
bloated
very very bloated now...
made to finish everything just now...
die... how to have the steamboat later?
maybe can... if i have my "dinner" at 11pm?
wont be sleeping anyway... so why not?
love you sayang...
really cant wait for you to be back...
*muacks*
forever loving you...
6:36 pm
makan
going to eat now...
nope not makan...
mommy bought indian rojak...
miss you sayang...
love you lots...
forever loving you...
6:10 pm
11hrs 45mins
11hrs 45mins...
thats how long i have to wait before you'll be back in singapore...
thats how long i will be staying awake so that i can be sure...
thats how long i will remain worried before i hear from you...
love you sayang...
love you so much...
missing you dearly...
really cant wait to see you again...
forever loving you...
5:35 pm
back home
back home le...
mom drag dad out to fetch the friends too...
trying to show off only...
like we're really that rich...
haiz...
forever loving you...
5:33 pm
out again
going out again...
sis's friends coming and i have to go and fetch...
feeling kinda hungry now...
sayang, really cant wait to see you...
love you so much so much...
I LOVE YOU!!!
forever loving you...
4:31 pm
mini toons

should have gone minitoons...
should have bought this for your brother instead...
or rather something similiar...
it cost $3.90 only...
forever loving you...
2:53 pm
done...

done wrapping le...
hehe...
shall give you a surprise on tmr...
love you lots...
forever loving you...
2:51 pm
home
back home...
got you your stuff le...
hm... fujitsu haven call yet...
sian...
love you sayang...
shall start wrapping it now...
forever loving you...
2:14 pm
going out
going out now to buy 4-D for my dad...
and smthg else... for you...
love you sayang...
cant wait to see you...
*muacks*
forever loving you...
1:21 pm
pics


these pics managed to cool me down a bit...
but i'm still pissed!!
forever loving you...
1:10 pm
letter to dog owner
Hey you inconsiderate asshole dog owner. dun you know how to train your dog. oh i forgot, you dunno how to pee too. i guess you guys pee around your house too right? so thats why you did even bother to apologise when your dog pee-ed on my jeans. no wonder, you guys smells like dog pee and poo whenever you walk pass us. just wondering what do you have for your meals? oh yah i guess its pee and poo too, assholes. btw next time you miss smelling dog pee in your house, tell me, i can volunteer my pee for you. it foc, dun worry. bloody hell!!
p/s - do you use pee and poo to wash your clothes too?
forever loving you...
1:02 pm
sent email
sent an email to AMK TC...
wonder if they'll do anything...
they better...
cos everyone is very very pissed off with them le...
forever loving you...
12:30 pm
your msg
got your msg...
you told me you'll be taking the 0020 flight from Guiyang..
Silkair Flight no. M1 487...
arriving at T2 at 0520hrs...
dun think i'll be able to sleep till you arrive back in S'pore safely and soundly...
will be praying for you...
sorry i wont be there to pick you up...
sorry... i really wanted to go...
but... sorry...
but i'll be going to your place in the evening...
cant wait to see you sayang...
love you lots...
miss you...
forever loving you...
12:20 pm
home and piss-ed
home le...
super duper pissed le....
wat the hell!!!
stupid dog owner let their dog pee on my laundry!!!
ARGH!!!!!!!
forever loving you...
12:03 pm
going out now
going out now...
sian...
good weather to nua in bed...
haiz...
miss you dearly sayang...
cant wait to see you...
love you lots...
*muacks*
forever loving you...
9:53 am
preparing to go out
preparing to go out now...
sis's friends coming today...
need to buy food for their steamboat...
forever loving you...
9:40 am
wondering
still no msg from you yet...
wondering whats wrong...
worried...
forever loving you...
9:34 am
woke up
woke up...
still no msg from you...
wondering whats wrong...
are you still sleeping?
msged you to find out why...
hm...
forever loving you...
9:16 am
checking again
woke up again...
to check my hp...
no msg from you yet...
guess you are still sleeping...
love you lots sayang...
miss you...
cant wait to see you again...
forever loving you...
7:27 am
check
woke up to check my hp...
to see if you msged me...
nope... guess you are still sleeping...
love you lots sayang...
forever loving you...
6:32 am
sleep
going to bed now...
missing you dearly sayang...
really cant wait for you to be back...
cant wait to see you...
nitez...
will be dreaming of you...
*muacks*
forever loving you...
2:01 am
show finished
show finished le...
thorough waste of time...
not even scary...
very predictable plot...
cant seem to fall asleep now...
dunno why...
maybe cos you are coming back soon...
miss you...
forever loving you...
1:29 am
some thai ghost movie
played a bit of my game...
you know the soccer game...
watching some thai ghost movie on channel u now...
neither scary nor good...
well... i cant sleep...
so wat the hell...
forever loving you...
12:58 am
Friday, December 22, 2006
end of day 6
day 6...
wat a long and torturous week it has been...
time always seems to be crawling ever so slowly...
but i have to tell myself...
one more day...
just one more day and my sayang will be back to me...
cant wait...
really missing you a lot now...
if i could i would fly over now just to be with you...
love you lots sayang...
love you forever...
forever loving you...
11:44 pm
162...
just counted...
162 posts...
sorry sayang...
sorry for giving you so much nonsense to read...
really really very very sorry...
love you...
forever loving you...
11:42 pm
bathed
just bathed...
watched Supernatural just now...
not bad...
taped it down for you sayang...
just in case you wanna watch too...
love you lots...
cant wait for you to be back...
forever loving you...
11:03 pm
glutinous rice ball
just had my tang yuan...
gigantic tang yuan they are...
made them too big...
very very bloated now...
haiz...
forever loving you...
9:14 pm
home
just got from collecting the car...
gave you a miss call...
and accidently picked up...
nvm... you're coming back tmr le...
think the remaining credit should be enough till you're back...
sian... you're coming back tmr and your lappie is still not ready for collection yet...
sian... sis's friends coming to celebrate X'mas at my house tmr...
haiz... dun think can type much tmr le...
love you sayang...
really cant wait for you to be back...
missing you like crazy...
forever loving you...
8:56 pm
going out
going out now to get the car...
love you lots sayang...
*muacks*
forever loving you...
4:31 pm
done


made the tang yuan le...
haiz...
too bad sayang not able to eat the tang yuan i made myself...
:(
miss you sayang...
cant wait for you to be back...
forever loving you...
4:14 pm
winter solstice
today's winter solstice...
going to make tang yuan now...
too bad cant make for you sayang...
=(
forever loving you...
3:57 pm
cuteoverload's back




forever loving you...
3:24 pm
finish
just finished what i wanted to do...
love you sayang...
cant for you to come back...
then i can show it to you...
miss you...
forever loving you...
3:20 pm
kaya toast again
had kaya toast for breakfast again...
miss you sayang...
forever loving you...
10:00 am
152nd
this the 152nd post...
hm... wondering why i just have to include every mundane detail for you...
just saw on CNA, is this considered blog streaking?
i dunno...
forever loving you...
9:11 am
peeling
starting to peel le...
feeling like a snake now...
ew...
skin flakes are dropping all over the place...
forever loving you...
9:09 am
you replied
you said you did give me a miss call last night...
but i didnt receive any...
was so worried...
couldn't sleep at all...
*sobs*
feeling very giddy and having a headache now...
*sobs*
forever loving you...
8:54 am
wats wrong?
sayang, wats wrong?
why dowan to reply my msg?
why did you choose to give me a miss call instead?
what is it that you dun want to let me know?
*sobs*
forever loving you...
8:47 am
nothing yet
nothing from you yet...
since i asked you...
are you mad at me?
feeling sick in the tummy again...
getting worried again...
forever loving you...
8:20 am
spinning
everything seems to be spinning...
i know i should go to sleep...
but i cant fall asleep...
no news from you yet...
:'(
forever loving you...
8:08 am
asked
sms-ed you to ask you why...
sorry...
but i really need to know...
before i start going crazy again...
sorry...
forever loving you...
8:00 am
finally....
you finally responded...
at 7.13am...
you gave me a miss call...
kinda relieved now...
but still worried and confused...
are you really ok?
wat happened?
how come like that?
dun think can fall asleep now also...
haiz...
forever loving you...
7:15 am
sms and miss call
i couldn't take it anymore...
even if it means waking you up...
i need to know that you are ok...
finally decided to sms you and give you a miss call...
pls...
if you are ok...
gimme a reply soon...
i'm freaking out now...
forever loving you...
7:08 am
SAYANG!!!!
sayang!!!
can you hear me calling out to you?
i'm really going to freak out le...
are you really ok?
pls...
give me a miss call soon...
sayang...
are you really angry with me?
pls...
i'm going crazy le....
forever loving you...
6:52 am
mom's out
mom left for work le...
but still no news from you yet...
are you ok?
usually i would get a miss call from you about this time...
when you wake up or go out...
sayang...
is everything ok?
dun scare me...
oh god, pls dun be so cruel...
pls dun take away the only happiness i have taken so long to find...
pls, i'm begging you...
pls watch over my sayang...
pls keep her safe from harm...
and return her to me safe and sound...
pls...
forever loving you...
6:39 am
dawn
its dawn le...
still no news from you yet...
got scolded by my mom too...
for not sleeping the whole night...
how could i sleep?
if i dunno if my sayang is ok?
really very very very worried...
dunno what to do...
very tempted to sms or call your dad...
but i'm scared that it'll get you into trouble...
what should i do?
i really dunno...
just feel like crying...
*sobs*
forever loving you...
5:58 am
sayang....
are you really ok?
i'm seriously going to freak out over here in singapore le...
dun even know what to type le...
very very lost, helpless and worried now...
*sobs* *sobs* *sobs* *sobs* *sobs* *sobs* *sobs* *sobs* *sobs* *sobs*
forever loving you...
4:49 am
scolded...
got scolded by dad...
for not sleeping...
too worried to sleep...
sayang, are you ok?
feeling so useless...
keep asking this qn on the blog...
but not actually sms-ing you...
dunno why...
maybe i'm scared of what might have really happened...
forever loving you...
4:23 am
sorry for the broken promise...
i'm very sorry, sayang...
i promised you that i'll sleep...
but i really cant sleep now...
still no miss call from you yet...
really cant fall asleep like that...
sayang...
pls... if everything's ok...
just give me a miss call...
forever loving you...
4:02 am
sleepless and worried
sayang, why?
i'm very very worried now...
is everything ok?
i dun want to sms you to ask...
cos i'm afraid that you are asleep and i might wake you up...
but then another part of me keep giving the worst case senario...
sayang...
i'm very very very worried now...
*sobs*
forever loving you...
2:47 am
worried
sayang, are you really ok?
how come no miss call yet?
have you fallen asleep?
or are you really mad at me?
sayang....
forever loving you...
12:57 am
getting worried
getting worried...
you said you would give me a miss call before you go to bed...
but till now...
no news from you yet...
sayang, are you alright?
really cant fall asleep now...
:(
*worried*
forever loving you...
12:33 am
Thursday, December 21, 2006
good night
going to bed now...
love you sayang...
will be dreaming of you through the night...
miss you dearly...
*muacks*
forever loving you...
11:57 pm
end of day 5...
wat a day it was...
thoroughly miserable...
wish you were here... (kinda selfish i know)
but i really need you...
just to be by my side...
getting closer to 24th...
cant wait...
love you lots sayang...
forever loving you...
11:52 pm
just bathe
just finished bathing...
challenging task it was...
tough to scrub myself clean when all my joints are aching...
going to bed soon...
i think...
but not before i apply plenty of yoko yoko on myself...
*ouch*
forever loving you...
11:50 pm
headache
full blown headache le...
*ouch*
think will be sleeping early tonight...
forever loving you...
11:12 pm
miserable...
feeling super duper miserable now...
disorientation...
headache (but not quite a headache)
giddy (but not tt giddy)
super sick in the stomach...
super achy all over the places...
very very miserable now...
sian...
forever loving you...
11:06 pm
back home
back home le...
went to check account balance also...
just enough for school fees...
hehe...
forever loving you...
11:05 pm
fetching my sis
going out to fetch my sis now...
she had a day of fun le...
pool and steamboat...
forever loving you...
10:38 pm
oh no
oh no...
cuteoverload has exceeded its bandwidth...
and has been suspended...
damn...
its really overloaded...
forever loving you...
10:35 pm
puked
just went to puke...
feeling slightly better now...
there were lots of green in my vomit...
didnt rem eating any this few days...
weird...
forever loving you...
10:31 pm
just woke up...
went to lie down after dinner...
didnt know that i'll sleep till now...
haiz...
really not feeling very well now...
nauseous and achy all over...
sian...
sms-ed you that it freezing cold...
you didnt know that i'm talking about myself...
and you told me to beat 1degrees...
if i'm one degree, it would be dar dar no more...
hehe... not your fault... glad that you dunno...
dowan you to worry...
love you lots sayang...
cant wait for you to return...
*muacks*
forever loving you...
10:15 pm
ate
just had dinner...
didnt eat much...
still feeling very very cold now...
dunno why...
think i'm falling sick...
not gonna tell you...
dun want you to worry...
love you lots sayang...
think its gonna rain soon... again...
haiz...
forever loving you...
7:47 pm
back again
back here again...
after watching one dvd of 'Friends'...
wish i was watching it with you...
miss you sayang...
feeling really really cold now...
dunno if its just the weather...
or am i falling sick...
miss you sayang...
really cant wait for you to be back...
love you lots...
forever loving you...
7:06 pm
getting the car tmr...
the car will be here tmr...
yeah?!
school fees will be deducted tmr...
yeah?!
haiz....
forever loving you...
6:53 pm
day 5 and 122...
halfway thru day 5...
cant believe i've survived 5 days without you...
it has been totally unbearable not being able to hear your voice and hold you in my arms...
day 5 and already at the 122nd post...
dunno why i just have to type every single thing here...
maybe i just want you to know what i've been doing...
and how i feel...
tts how much you mean to sayang...
i love you...
forever loving you...
4:42 pm
got your sms
received your sms...
you told me that you are not angry with me...
and told me to scold him if it would make me feel better...
but i dowan...
i dowan to start anythg that might affect you...
i just want him to be out of the picture totally...
i want this chapter to be closed...
its our future that i want...
because i love you sayang...
forever loving you...
4:36 pm
panic
now i'm panicking...
no reply from you since i've confess to you...
are you mad at me sayang?
i'm really very sorry for what i've done...
but what i've done is out of my love for you...
sayang, i'm sorry...
love you...
forever loving you...
4:15 pm
decided
this thing has been troubling me for the past few days...
finally decided that i should let you know first...
think that he might have sms-ed your singtel number too..
and so that you can be mentally prepared when you see the msg...
now, i just waiting for your reply...
anxious and scared...
anxious that you'll be hurt...
and scared that you'll be mad at me...
sayang...
i'm really really very very sorry...
i just hope that you can forgive me...
what i did was because i love you...
sorry...
forever loving you...
4:05 pm
3 jeans
yup...
3 pair of jeans...
thats all i washed today...
arms are fully achy now...
sianz...
forever loving you...
3:49 pm
laundry
going to do laundry now...
still very very achy...
*ouch*
seems like its going to rain again...
misses you more with each passing second...
cant wait for you to be back...
really feel like just sleep away the time till your return...
love you lots...
forever loving you...
1:54 pm
played some game
just played some game...
feeling super duper bored...
dun feel like going out also...
so used to going out with you...
the streets just seems so different without you by my side...
miss you lots sayang...
cant wait for you to be back...
love you...
forever loving you...
1:14 pm
finished lunch
just had lunch... i think...
2 slices of kaya toast...
and iced-coffee...
really missing you now...
no appetite at all...
why is time passing by so slowly...
its so torturous waiting for sunday...
really want to go pick you up on sunday...
but i'm scared that your parents will not be happy...
haiz...
wat should i do?
forever loving you...
12:22 pm
miss you
hugging tigers and missing you...
really cant wait for you to be back...
but yet i'm scared that you'll be mad at me for doing wat i did when you come back...
really love you a lot sayang...
i'm sorry... i'm really am...
forever loving you...
11:59 am
ouch
very very achy all over the places...
cant even sneeze without pain in the abs...
*pain*
how to do laundry like that?
forever loving you...
11:11 am
more pics




forever loving you...
11:00 am
raining again
its starting to rain again...
making me all kinda moody and depressed...
sianz... now i'm feeling...
lost...
lonely...
sad...
depressed...
sorry...
guilty...
love you sayang...
cant wait for you to be back...
pls forgive me...
forever loving you...
10:58 am
guilty and sorry
suddenly feeling very guilty and sorry for wat i did...
really should have wait for you to come back before doing anything...
sorry sayang...
i'm really very very sorry for wat i did...
pls forgive me...
forever loving you...
10:54 am
just woke up
just woke up...
feeling all stiff and sunburn...
*ouch*
tried to give you miss call too...
but starhub cant detect your mobile...
haiz...
love you lots sayang...
pls take good care of yourself and be careful...
i couldnt imagine wat life will become should anything happen to you...
love you always...
*muacks*
forever loving you...
10:20 am
morning
received your miss call at 6.24am
love you lots sayang...
*muacks*
cant wait for you to be back...
gg back to slp now...
trying to waste more time in bed...
weather very good to nua...
about to rain soon...
again...
haiz...
forever loving you...
6:29 am
good night
going to bed now...
i know its kinda late...
but was about to go sleep le...
then suddenly need to move my bowels...
then decided to brush my teeth (was lazy)...
then washed my face (hate it when i get sunburn, face always oily...) {OUCH}
so going to bed now...
sayang...
really misses you a lot now...
esp when it all quiet...
will be dreaming of you all night...
love you lots...
love you always...
*muacks*
I LOVE YOU!!!
forever loving you...
2:34 am
movie over...
finish watching man on fire le...
not so good a show anyway...
stupid plot and storyline...
only thing good was denzel's and fenning's acting...
too bad cant watch it with you sayang...
eagerly waiting for your return...
then we can go watch 'Night in museum' together...
love you lots...
cant wait for you to be back...
forever loving you...
2:22 am
end of day 4
end of day 4...
getting closer to the day of your return...
but time still seems to be going by ever so slowly...
torturing me with every snail-paced turn of the second hand...
falling really really very sick now...
love-sick...
it feel really terrible not having you around...
thats how much you mean to me...
sayang, i love you...
i hope you'll forgive me for being so impulsive...
now i'm even wondering if i should even let you see the msg...
but i know that i should...
for you have every right to know...
and i dun want to keep anything from you...
but yet i'm afraid and i hate to see you sad...
i dunno...
i just want you back at my side safe and sound...
thats all i ask for for now...
i love you sayang...
i really do...
i'll always do...
forever loving you...
2:15 am
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
Man on Fire
going to watch 'Man On Fire' now...
too bad cant watch it with you...
miss you...
love you...
forever loving you...
11:14 pm
haha no more bread
haha...
ask me to buy bread so late...
no more bread...
end up with bonjour white bread only...
have to buy tmr...
miss having kaya toast with you sayang...
love you lots...
forever loving you...
10:35 pm
buying bread
sian...
going out to buy bread for dad and mom tmr breakkie...
hiaz...
thinking of the times when we go school early to have breakfast together...
love you lots...
miss you lots...
cant wait for you to be back...
*muacks*
forever loving you...
10:09 pm
flooding in batu pahat
heard from the news that parts of batu pahat is flooded...
dunno if your relatives places are affected...
haiz...
too bad cant tell you now...
dowan you to get worried...
love you lots sayang...
forever loving you...
10:05 pm
UIC
hm...
UIC planning to sell their shenton way building...
interesting...
think the IR really gonna change the whole outlook of our waterfront...
forever loving you...
9:49 pm
good night sayang
got your miss call...
know that you are going to sleep le...
love you lots sayang...
if only i could be with you now...
then i can hold you in my arms and go to sleep...
missing you dearly...
love you...
forever loving you...
9:28 pm
hm...
didnt realise at all...
i've broken the 400th entries le...
this is the 409th entry...
should i blog less?
hm...
i dunno...
forever loving you...
8:57 pm
COE dropped!!
WTH!!!
COE dropped to below 10k!!!
just after my dad bought the car...
haiz...
really very very lugi.
no choice...
wat to do now...
CAT C - goods veh and buses dropped to $1 !!!!
wah biang!!!
forever loving you...
8:53 pm
96th
this is the 96th post since you left for vacation...
sorry sayang...
too much crap for you to read...
sorry if i bore you...
love you lots...
forever loving you...
8:52 pm
mr liedownandblockmyway
saw the dark brown cat today...
it was sunning itself...
went to pat it...
then when i walked away...
it ran in front of me and hug my leg...
refusing to let go...
just like me...
refusing to ever ever let you go...
love you so much so much sayang...
dun ever wanna be without you...
*muacks*
forever loving you...
8:47 pm
bloated
finished my dinner le...
dinner was grilled ribs and fried egg...
very very bloated now...
had a cup of FnN orange squash too...
remembering the orange koniyaku...
missing you dearly sayang...
love you lots...
forever loving you...
8:22 pm
dinner
dinner now...
dun think can eat much...
just had that whole of pasta...
haiz...
somemore nose still dripping...
sianz...
almost half a roll of toilet paper gone...
and *ouch*... sunburn...
forever loving you...
8:09 pm
your miss call
recieved your miss call again...
really cant wait for you to be back...
so that i can...
hear you...
hold you...
and kiss you...
love you lots sayang...
*muacks*
forever loving you...
7:39 pm
headache
there's this headache...
think too much sun this afternoon...
argh!!!
forever loving you...
6:58 pm
Friends
watching "Friends" on dvd...
trying very hard to enjoy myself...
but still missing you a lot...
had a bowl of pasta...
very full now...
i've kept my promise...
love you sayang...
cant wait for you to be back....
forever loving you...
6:09 pm
your call
recieved your miss call sayang...
missing you like crazy now...
love you forever...
forever loving you...
6:03 pm
home
back home...
amazingly, no rain at all...
in fact the sun was high and shining...
all sun burnt now...
after soccer, i went down to funan to send your lappie for servicing...
finally home now...
going to bathe le...
*ouch*
sunburnt
top up your credit again...
hope that you can give me more miss call now...
really need to know that you are ok...
love you lots sayang...
*muacks*
forever loving you...
5:23 pm
out now
going out for soccer now...
didnt rain...
sian...
should be excited...
but quite sian...
missing sayang a lot now... haiz...
forever loving you...
10:14 am
more pics from overload!!





SAYANG I LOVE YOU!!!
I LOVE YOU WHOLEHEARTEDLY!!!
I LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER MORE!!!
* MUACKS *
forever loving you...
8:48 am
feeling sick and sian

itchy eyes...

running nose...
and...

pimple outbreak...
yeah i know...
very very disgusting of me....
heh
forever loving you...
8:42 am
it stop
the rain has stop...
for now... i think...
dunno if it'll rain later...
hopefully not...
gettin sick and tired of being wet cold all day...
forever loving you...
7:55 am
just woke up
just woke up...
and msged you...
didnt really get to sleep much last night...
love you lots sayang...
miss you lots...
forever loving you...
6:31 am
sleepless and torn
sleepless again...
dunno why i suddenly tot of the fact that you might leave me one day to study...
feeling so torn now...
torn between keeping my love with me and not fullfilling her dream...
and losing my love and fullfilling her dream...
dunno why...
feeling very very depressed now...
tears are starting to flow...
*sobs*
forever loving you...
1:41 am
going to bed now
going to bed now...
will be dreaming of you...
love you lots sayang...
*muacks*
forever loving you...
1:06 am
still raining
sianz...
still pouring outside...
chances of playing soccer tmr seems bleak...
haiz...
forever loving you...
12:41 am
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
end of day 3
day 3...
without you by my side...
feeling lost and lonely...
have to walk around whole crossing arm...
missing you dearly...
really cant wait for you to be back...
will top up your credit tmr...
so that you can miss call me...
love you sayang...
love you with whole my heart...
love you always...
I love you...
forever loving you...
11:49 pm
very very bloated
one big bowl of sweet potato soup down...
super duper bloated now...
dun think can sleep now...
argh!!!
cant even sit up straight now...
forever loving you...
11:47 pm
wallet spoilt
sianz.... my wallet spoilt again...
haiz... die die have to use the new one now...
forever loving you...
11:31 pm
bathe le...
yup i know...
i took quite a while to bathe...
actually was doing some exercise...
trying to lose some fat...
heh...
really getting fat le...
somemore its raining like tat everyday...
dun think can go running also...
sianz... spoil my plan...
forever loving you...
11:23 pm
going bathe
going to bathe now...
received your sms just now...
no news from you the day drove me really crazy...
you can ask my sis...
think i'll top up your credit tmr...
if not i'll really go crazy...
love you sayang...
*muacks*
forever loving you...
10:00 pm
soccer tmr?
hm... soccer tmr...
kinda excited and kinda sad...
excited cos its been a long time since i've played...
sad cos sayang still not back yet...
dun even know if its still on...
raining for 2 days le...
and s'pore met predicting rain till fri...
haiz...
sianz...
forever loving you...
9:14 pm
i'm sorry
sayang, i'm so sorry...
i really should not have replied him for you...
i really should have just wait for you come back...
haiz... pls forgive me...
i did what i did because i love you...
if you are not happy pls...
pls tell me...
i'm really really very very very sorry...
forever loving you...
9:05 pm
back at home
back at home after almost a whole day outside...
went courts megastore...
there were really some crazy sale items there...
bought a 1Gb mp3 player at only $49...
and there were more crazy deals...
sayang... your dad dopod going only for $668 !!!
anyway, it was raining the whole day...
it was a very very crazy drive...
as you can see...

some places even flooded till waste level...
sayang, i taped down the news for you...
so that you can see how much damage 48hrs of rain can do...
yeah, 48 whole hrs... without stopping...
really missing you...
days without you are now wet cold and lonely...
love you sayang...
forever loving you...
8:04 pm
going out now
going out now...
haiz...
still raining...
slept a bit just now...
feeling super duper sleepy now...
*yawnz*
Love you sayang...
misses you lots...
cant wait for you to be back...
forever loving you...
1:20 pm
going to courts megastore
haiz...
mommy wants to go to courts megastore later...
dun feel like going...
just want to nua...
misses my sayang lots...
haiz...
forever loving you...
12:19 pm
sad tigers

sad tigers misses their mommy....
*sobs* * sobs* *sobs*
forever loving you...
12:15 pm
pls stop raining



why does it keep raining like this....
haiz...
pls stop...
you are making me more nua and sad and worried...
forever loving you...
12:08 pm
starting again
yeah as expected...
the minute she wake up...
she start screaming at me...
argh!!!
its really not helping anything...
just feel like going back to sleep...
just feel like crying...
sianz...
forever loving you...
11:30 am
it just wont stop raining...
pls stop raining...
haiz...
its only making me more depressed...
miss you sayang...
wish i am with you now...
forever loving you...
11:27 am
more pics from overload


forever loving you...
11:16 am
beginning of day 3
just woke up...
received your msg that you cant call cos not enough credit...
we all miss you much sayang...
haiz...
been raining all night...
feeling really low now...
just feel like nua-ing in bed and do nothing...
haiz...
everyone at home...
which means lotsa shouting and screaming...
sian...
really misses you...
cant wait for you to be back...
forever loving you...
10:37 am
back home safely
made it home safely le...
love you sayang...
love you so much...
i'm going to bed now...
will keep my promise and try to sleep...
love you...
cant wait for you to be back...
forever loving you...
2:08 am
the call...
got the call...
going to fetch my dad now...
damn heavy rain...
god bless me...
in case anythg...
love you sayang...
love you with all my heart...
love you always...
forever loving you...
1:30 am
short
my 1st sis came back from prom on heels and said to my 2nd sis, " haha shorty"
me, " haha, you still shorter than me"
forever loving you...
1:12 am
failed attempt
was lying on my bed trying to catch some sleep before going to fetch my dad...
but the minute i close my eyes...
scenes of you and me turn up...
really misses you a lot a lot...
especially at this time of the day...
when its so quiet...
its just make things worst...
haiz... if only i can control time...
then i can fast forward to the day of your return...
haiz... missing you dearly...
I love you
forever loving you...
1:09 am
370th
my sis just asked me, how many entries i have in total...
i just realised...
this will be the 370th entry...
given that my blog has been around for only 13mths
thats 28.46 entries per mth...
maybe i am blogging too much...
hm... i dunno...
sayang, am i really so nonsensical?
am i boring you with all my nonsense, mundane entries?
i dunno...
but i really need a medium to vent out everything...
esp now... when you are not around...
sorry sayang, i so sorry that you'll have so much to read once you come back...
i know that you'll be very tired and need to rest...
but... sorry...
i really need to type out everything before i go crazy...
i love you sayang...
i really do...
forever loving you...
12:39 am
170th
today's is the 170th day...
loving you even more so with each passing day...
too bad we have to be separated by such a great distance...
haiz...
really missing you really a lot now...
cant wait for 24th...
cant wait for you to be back...
i really want to go pick you up...
but your grandparents, parents and you keep insisting that i dun go...
i know you all meant good...
but do ou understand how much i miss you...
how much i need to hold your hand...
how much i need to feel your presence around me...
i just cant live without you...
i can never get used to not having you around me...
i never want to be without you...
you are the only one i want...
i love you sayang...
i love you forever and ever more...
*muacks*
I LOVE YOU
forever loving you...
12:32 am
Sorry
WG, sorry...
sorry that I blew up like that...
its just that, i really dun like it when obviously that there's smthg,
and pple dun tell me...
i'll go crazy... (you can ask my sayang abt it)
tks for telling me anyway...
yeah, i knew i was a bit rude that day...
but when you asked me...
the first thing that came to my mind was that...
viv will not be around during the MJ gathering...
thats why...
sorry...
but really, i cant make it...
sorry...
and tks...
forever loving you...
12:29 am
end of day 2 and beginning of sleepless night 3
another day has passed...
the day to your return is getting nearer...
cant wait...
yet another wet wet day...
feeling cold, lost and lonely...
haiz... really dunno how to survive if we really have to go to diff places to study next time...
kinda hoping that both of us only get sponsorship... yeah sorry sayang...
its kinda selfish i know...
but days without you by my side really take a lot a lot to get used to...
guess i just love you too much that i cant be without you...
dunno wat time i'll be able to fall asleep tonight...
will be going out to fetch my dad later...
i promise that i wll be careful...
i love you sayang....
i really do...
*muacks*
forever loving you...
12:25 am
back
back home from fetching my sis...
after a very very wet drive home...
really hate driving in the rain...
cos i just cant see the god damn lane markings...
haiz...
feeling kinda acheivement...
driving first time to suntec and back...
(yah i know... one year plus of driving exp and first time driving to suntec...)
go ahead laugh!!
i'm just glad that i made it home safely and soundly...
forever loving you...
12:22 am
Monday, December 18, 2006
going out
going out now to fetch my sis...
haiz...
sianz...
dunno if i can rem the way correctly...
wth...
forever loving you...
11:05 pm
my note to the dog owners
forever loving you...
10:45 pm
huh?
wg... why you suddenly come online and asked me if i'm pissed with you?
wat happened?
you are not telling me anythg either...
obviously there is smthg i that i didnt know about happened...
suddenly feeling very very sian diao again...
i really hate it when pple tell me things halfway and say "nthg" and "nvm"...
forever loving you...
10:40 pm
an hour
play about an hour of game...
still cant get over the fact that we though being in the same timezone...
are thousands of miles apart...
but fret not...
the distance may be great...
but our love is stronger...
i'll be waiting for your return patiently...
while waiting...
i'll be praying for you...
sayang...
pls be careful...
i dunno what would happen to me should anything happen to you...
love you so much sayang...
forever loving you...
10:33 pm
Again!!


rain again!!!
getting a bit sick of the weather now...
forever loving you...
8:57 pm
nitez sayang
received your sms that you are going to bed le...
nitez sayang... love you...
tigers and i will be dreaming of you...
love you so much sayang...
forever loving you...
8:44 pm
running out of credit
sianz... your card running out of credit again...
should i top it up again?
i dunno...
sianz...
love you sayang...
forever loving you...
8:43 pm
cambodia trip
to promote malaria awareness...
hm... dunno if i wanna go...
dun think sayang can go...
her parents cannot know she brought hp...
haiz...
dun want to go if sayang not going...
love you sayang...
forever loving you...
8:38 pm
whole day



been raining like that the whole day...
lowest temp 24, highest temp 27...
very very wet and cold...
getting me into a very low mood...
esp now with a bad flu...
sian...
starting on another roll of toilet paper le...

haiz...
forever loving you...
8:27 pm