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Thursday, August 31, 2006
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forever loving you...
10:53 pm
An hour...
You have been in pain for more than an hour le... And yet there is nothing I can do to alleviate you pain... Tears are flowing down my cheek le... Sayang, I'm feeling so helpless now, you know how painful it is to know that you are suffering and yet I can't take care of you?
I am so useless... Can't even take care of my Sayang...
forever loving you...
10:49 pm
Hurt so much...
My heart aches so much that my chest hurts so much now...
forever loving you...
10:24 pm
Useless
I AM
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forever loving you...
10:21 pm
Very very worried...
Sayang, are you alright... It dead space on msn again and you are not replying my sms and not answering my call... Very very worried now... My chest is hurting now cos my heart is aching so much... Sayang... I love you... Pls be ok...
forever loving you...
10:03 pm
Your kisses...
You know your kiss can do wonders?
It can,
Make my day...
Make my headache feels better...
Make everything seems so right...
Make any pain go away...
Make me wants to love you more...
Make me happiest guy on earth...
It wonders how much your kiss can do... So please keep kissing me... For I'll never stop kissing you as well...
I Love You...
*muacks*
forever loving you...
9:43 pm
Still abit unbelievable...
You know? Sometimes, I still can't believe that we are together...
People always give me the impression that I'm never good enough to be somebody else lover... and will never have one...
Sayang, you have helped me find happiness... and you've made me felt something I've never felt before... Thank you for accepting me into your life...
Sayang, thank you for all that you've done for me... For now, I cant give you much, but I promise you, I'll give you all my love for thats wat I can do now...
Sayang, no matter what lies ahead in our future, I'll always be with you... I'll never let go of the most wonderful thing that has taken me so long to find...
Sayang, I LOVE YOU!!!!
forever loving you...
9:33 pm
What it means...
What it means,
When I hold you close to me...
When I bring your hand to my heart...
When I kiss you on your forehead...
When I kiss you on your cheek...
When I kiss you on your nose...
When I kiss you on your lips...
When I kiss you on your hand...
When I kiss your scars...
When I put my hand around your waist...
When I call you whenever I can...
When I hold you hand...
When I hug you tight...
When I tickle you...
When I rub your tummy...
When I pinch your nose...
When my heart aches for you...
It means that I love you whole-heartedly and I'll never hurt you...
forever loving you...
9:25 pm
60 days...
60 days le...
All I can say is that, this number will always keep increasing and will never end...
I love you, Sayang... I love you so much...
~muacks~
forever loving you...
9:21 pm
you and me...
ELVA - Edwin Loves Vivienne Always...
EnV - Edwin and Vivienne...
2281 - Edwin hugging Vivienne...
Putty - Puppy kissing Kitty...
Kippy - Kitty kissing Puppy...
LOVE - Love Of Vivienne and Edwin...
forever loving you...
9:15 pm
Without you...
Without you,
My life would be empty.
Without you,
My life would be dull and gray.
Without you,
I would still be lonely and sad.
Without you,
I would not be what I am today.
Without you,
It would be another disaster.
forever loving you...
9:07 pm
Lovin' you - Minnie Riperton
Lovin' you is easy cause you're beautiful
Makin' love with you is all I wanna do
Lovin' you is more than just a dream come true
And everything that I do is out of lovin' you
La la la la la la la... do do do do do
No one else can make me feel
The colors that you bring
Stay with me while we grow old
And we will live each day in springtime
Cause lovin' you has made my life so beautiful
And every day my life is filled with lovin' you
Lovin' you I see your soul come shinin' through
And every time that we oooooh
I'm more in love with you
La la la la la la la... do do do do do
No one else can make me feel
The colors that you bring
Stay with me while we grow old
And we will live each day in springtime
Cause lovin' you is easy cuz your beautiful
And every day my life is filled with lovin' you
Lovin' you I see your soul come shinin' through
And every time that we oooooh
I'm more in love with you
La la la la la la la... do do do do do
forever loving you...
9:02 pm
Worried..
Sayang, I'm really worried about you going back to M'sia this weekend... Esp now that its not very safe there as well, with all the crimes happening... You really must take good care of yourself... Dun go anywhere alone, always have someone tag along k?
I'm really worried...
Love you so much...
forever loving you...
8:08 pm
I Live My Life For You - Firehouse
You know you're everything to me and I could never see
The two of us apart
And you know I give myself to you and no matter what you do
I promise you my heart
I've built my world around you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before
I live my life for you
I want to be by your side in everything that you do
And if there's only one thing you can believe is true
I live my life for you
I dedicate my life to you, you know that I would die for you
But our love would last forever
And I will always be with you and there is nothing we can't do
As long as we're together
I just can't live without you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before
I live my life for you
I want to be by your side in everything that you do
And if there's only one thing you can believe is true
I live my life for you
I've built my world around you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before
I live my life for you
I want to be by your side in everything that you do
And if there's only one thing you can believe is true
I live my life for you
I live my life for you
forever loving you...
7:42 pm
Affected
Another lousy dream this morning... Was really affected by it the whole day at work... Kept poking my palm with my pen trying to make myself not to think of it...
I think I'm really affected by my parents's past... and I'm really scared that it would happened to me (Sayang, its not your fault, it just me)... my heart really cant take these kind of blows...
Sayang, I'm so sorry... I know you wont hurt me... Sorry for all these crap... Promise you I won't poke myself again... Sorry...
I love you Sayang... I really do...
forever loving you...
7:24 pm
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
Always with you...
Sayang...
I might not be able to be by your side all the while...
But my heart will...
I might not be able to take care of you all the while...
But I'll always stay online with you, till you are ok...
I might not be able to provide the materials needs...
But I've given you my heart...
I might not be able to feel your pain...
But my heart aches, and it hurts so deeply...
I might not be able to tell you in words how I really feel...
But my love for you is true, and it will last forever...
Sayang, I love you...
There isn't anything that I wouldn't do to make you happy...
Love you so much so much...
*muacks*
forever loving you...
11:14 pm
Again
Sayang xinku again... feeling very very sad now...
*sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz*
forever loving you...
11:09 pm
Lousy Dream
Had a lousy dream this morning... and it kept repeating itself... Stupid dream... made me quite depress in the morning... told sayang abt it, and she asurred me that it would never come true...
Love you so much, Sayang...
Anyway, nthg much for the day also, cept went Artfriend with Sayang after work...
Haiz... Sayang having cramp now... Why cant the pain be put on me? I dun want her to suffer anymore... *sobz*
Sayang,
只要跟你在一起,
到哪里都是天涯海角,
粗茶淡饭也是山珍海味,
天天都是情人节。。。
我爱你。。。
Sayang, I love you...
forever loving you...
10:33 pm
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
58days...
Sayang, its only been 58 days...
But did you know,
How much have we been through already?
How much stronger have these obstacles made our love?
No matter how difficult the road may be, I'll always be by your side, holding your hand and giving you support?
No matter what may happens, my love for you will never change?
Sayang, I love you... I'll always do...
*muacks*
forever loving you...
11:32 pm
The day has came...
Sayang, yesterday when you finally tell me,
I was so happy...
You have finally opened up to me...
Now you can embrace my love...
I'm so happy...
Really really happy...
I love you Sayang... I'll always do....
forever loving you...
9:35 pm
Irritated
You are not qualified to be a teacher... You should be the one who should shut up and listen to us...
Like I was the only one talking... Like Wilson wasn't talking before I tap his shoulder to tell him smthg...
So just Shut th F*** up and F*** off!!!!
ps-sorry for the explicit content....
forever loving you...
9:32 pm
Monday, August 28, 2006
Nothing's Gonna Change My Love For You - George Benson
If I had to live my life without you near me...
The days would all be empty.
The nights would seem so long.
With you I see forever,
Oh, so clearly...
I might have been in love before,
But it never felt this strong.
Our dreams are young and we both know,
They'll take us where we want to go.
Hold me now.
Touch me now.
I don't want to live without you!
Nothing's gonna change my love for you.
You oughta know by now how much I love you.
One thing you can be sure of,
I'll never ask for more than your love.
Nothing's gonna change my love for you.
You oughta know by now how much I love you.
The world may change my whole life through,
But nothing's gonna change my love for you.
If the road ahead is not so easy,
Our love will lead the way for us like a guiding star.
I'll be there for you if you should need me.
You don't have to change a thing,
I love you just the way you are.
So come with me and share the view,
I'll help you see forever too.
Hold me now.
Touch me now.
I don't wanna live without you!
Nothing's gonna change my love for you.
You oughta know by now how much I love you.
One thing you can be sure of,
I'll never ask for more than your love.
Nothing's gonna change my love for you.
You oughta know by now how much I love you.
The world may change my whole life through,
But nothing's gonna change my love for you.
forever loving you...
10:12 pm
Sunday, August 27, 2006
我只知道...
我不知道我还能做什么来表达我对你的爱。。。
我也不知道我为你做的到底够不够。。。
我只知道我真的真的好爱好爱你。。。
forever loving you...
10:22 pm
Diarrhea
Really regret eating tom yam for breakfast this morning... Haiz....
forever loving you...
9:32 pm
Staying strong...
Its about 26hrs since I last held your hand and its will at least another 20hrs before I can get to hold your hand... And its driving me crazy... (Esp now....) But I'll stay strong, for I know, now you need my support...
Sayang, I really wants to be by your side now, to give you support and to comfort you... But...
*Sorry*
Please dun be afraid of what might happen Sayang, for I'll be there with you all the while... I won't give you up... So please don't as well...
Remember this...
I LOVE YOU...
*muacks*
forever loving you...
8:34 pm
27/08
1st day of the two... wont be able to see Sayang... sianz... going nuts already... *sobz*
will be going to Glen-E for 2nd half of clinical attachment tmr... dunno wat will be the situation there also...
haiz... still got reports and essays to write... then results will be coming out on 12/09, sian... will still be in genting at that time, very worried abt my socio... praying damn hard that sayang and me wont be part of the casaulties... who say clinical and holidays is for enjoyment?
so stressed out....
Sayang, do you know how happy I was when you came online at your aunt's house, just to tell me that you forgot your phone and to tell me that you're ok?
I love you so much...
forever loving you...
8:31 pm
No matter what...
Sayang, I really wants to be with you now...
To face it together...
To hold you in my arms...
To give you a shoulder to lean on...
To wipe your tears...
To comfort you...
Dun worry, nothing's gonna break us down... I'll always be by your side...
No matter what she says,
No matter how she attacks,
Just remember that I love you...
Sayang, you'll always be my Sayang and I'll always be your Dar...
I love you...
forever loving you...
3:01 pm
Sad
Apparently, Sayang's mommy did say nasty things and made my Sayang cry...
Sayang, dun worry, no one can break us up... I love you deeply... Pls dun do anything that will hurt both you and me... I'm always here... My shoulder is always here... I love you...
forever loving you...
1:01 pm
Saturday, August 26, 2006
A day with Sayang...
Happy happy puppy today, (except for the episode in between), spent a whole day with Sayang...
Went to meet her at Clementi, bought orange juice for her, turns out she bought herself orange juice also... Then we went city hall or rather Suntec Starbucks where Sayang did her reports...
Then Sayang started feeling uncomfortable and I decided to bring her to riverside for some fresh air... we sat in the sun where i hope the sun will do her good, but turns out she still black out... haiz...
After she came to, we went to sat in the shade... kissed a bit... =p I love her so much...
Then we went to have our "lunch" at KFC... then kitty went to buy pretzel and citrus mint...
Afterwhich, i sent sayang home... then i got the msg that sayang's parents questioned her abt me... luckily nothing happened...
Sayang, I love you so much... No matter what happens, I'll be there for you...
forever loving you...
8:33 pm
Friday, August 25, 2006
Stupid people
Stupid people:
1) Why are people finding it so hard to express their love to their loved ones? An occasional kiss and a gentle "I love you".... Is it so hard to be done?
2) Men who hit their wives/girlfriends deserved to be hung... (need not say more)
3) Men who cheat on their wives/girlfriends should be cut...
forever loving you...
10:15 pm
2281...
Sayang, I was reading through your blog's past entries just now...
Made me wants to treasure you more and love you more...
I really wanted to finish reading through every single entry, cos I want to know all about you...
But I stopped, because I need you to tell me your past personally...
only then will you be emotionally ready...
only then will you be not afraid anymore...
only then will you be able to tell me everything...
only then will you be able to bravely and fully accept my love...
only then will we be able to create more wonderful memories of our own...
only then will you be really really happy...
only then...
really looking forward to that day...
However, Sayang, i dun want you to rush it...
but trust me, my love will heals your wounds, my love will alleviate the pain...
I'm be by your side no matter what...
I'll shower you with all the love I can give...
I'll be the man,
who will always keep you from falling,
who will always keep you safe from harm,
who will always take care of you,
who will always support you,
who will always show you right from wrong,
who will always give you a shoulder to lean on, to cry on,
who will always provide you with a comfort zone to fall back to,
who will always be there for you,
who will always give you all his attention,
who will always listen to you,
who will always make you happy,
who will always stand by you,
who will always inspire you
who will always motivate you,
who will always cheer you up,
who will always be yours,
who will always hold your hand,
who will always hug you,
who will always hold you in my arms,
who will always kiss you,
who will always think of you,
who will always LOVE YOU...
Sayang, I love you...
Have faith in my faith, for my love is true and everlasting...
Sayang, I pledged my love to you...
*muacks*
forever loving you...
9:14 pm
Note to gals/guys out there...
Dunno why I'm such a popular guy recently... Just now on the train, this girl keep trying to get close to me... C'mon you have no chance...
To everyone else who are trying:
I'm deeply in love with my Sayang... there is no chance for you anymore... I'll never love anyone else except my Sayang... So please give up...
forever loving you...
9:10 pm
Dates to remember....
03/07 - The day I started being happy...
*muacks*
05/07 - The day I kissed you on your cheek...
*muacks*
06/07 - The day we kissed...
*muacks*
29/07 - The day we kissed passionately, our first...
~muacks~
03/07/06 - end of time : E.L.V.A.
forever loving you...
1:02 am
53rd...
Sayang, falling in love with you is such a wonderful thing... What I'm feeling now is hard to be expressed in words... Thats why when I hug you tightly, I'm trying to tell you that I love you so much... You have made me felt something that once seem so foreign to me... I believe it is called bliss... All I ever want to do is just to hold you in my arms and keep telling you, "I LOVE YOU."
Sayang, I really really love you...
*muacks*
forever loving you...
12:55 am
Thursday, August 24, 2006
*ouch*
More blisters... Sianz...
Yeah!!! went for lunch with Sayang again... But tmr will be the last I can makan with her... Cos next week going to GlenE le... Haiz...
Puppy loves kitty... Puppy will protect kitty... Puppy will take care of Kitty... Puppy will never hurt kitty... *muacks*
forever loving you...
7:40 pm
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
~sad~
You are sick again... Feeling so sad now... Sorry, didn't take good care of you... Love you so much... Rest well, Sayang... I LOVE YOU... *muacks*
forever loving you...
10:36 pm
Sian...
Dunno why... finding it a bit hard to complete all competancies, cos all radiographers have diff standards...
Anyway, met Elizabeth Choy today...
Most importantly, I got to have lunch with Sayang today!!! YEAH!!!
Sayang, I love you... I promise you, I'll try not to be such a cry-baby in the future... I love you... I hate to see you sad... *muacks*
forever loving you...
10:06 pm
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
haiz...
I think its happening again... haiz... what a night it has been... Sayang are you alright?
*sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz*
forever loving you...
11:21 pm
Feel so stupid...

Dunno what made me say those things to you... Sorry Sayang... I'm not mad at you... I just love you too much... Sorry... Feeling so stupid and jerky now, for making you so sad... Sorry...
*sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz*
forever loving you...
10:46 pm
Sorry
Sorry Sayang, I dunno why I keep feeling like this...
Maybe its just me... I'll give up/stop anythg just to chat with you, be with you... Quietly, I'm expecting a bit of something like that from you... I understand, if you are talking to someone else or doing something... But going to play game halfway through OUR conversation? I dunno... I really dun understand...
Sorry Sayang... I'm not demanding much... But pls be gentle with my heart, its fragile... It cant suffer any major blow, esp from you...
forever loving you...
10:01 pm
Bored and sad
Back here again... Was supposed to be chatting with Sayang on MSN, but somehow, she decided to go and play Pangya halfway thru... Am I such a bore to chat with? i dunno... feeling a bit abandoned... haiz...
forever loving you...
9:42 pm
51st...
Sayang... I love you forever...
But forever is still not enough...
forever loving you...
9:20 pm
Monday, August 21, 2006
Afraid-ed
Sayang, I was afraid when you told me you needed a break... I was afraid that you might choose to give up... But now, I'm not... Because, you've told me that you love me and you need me...
Have faith in me... I'm not like the men that were part of your life... I would never do anything to hurt you... I love you Sayang... I really do...
forever loving you...
10:45 pm
still awake
Should I give up trying to sleep? I dunno...
Take your time Sayang... Its ok, I'll wait... But pls dun take so long, I dunno how long can bear this...
forever loving you...
3:37 am
Can't fall asleep
Just can't fall asleep... Read your entry for a few times already...
forever loving you...
2:33 am
Sleepless and Sorry
Sayang, after reading your entry, I couldn't fall asleep, I keep tossing and turning in bed, thinking of what I've done to make you so stressed-out...
Now I understand... I love you too hard and tried to rush into things too quickly... You have to understand, you are my first love, and there are many things in loving someone that I still need to learn...
I feel so guilty about making you so stressed out... Pls forgive me...
forever loving you...
12:22 am
Sunday, August 20, 2006
So bored~~~
Lemme see, this will be the 10th post of the day... Whole day didn't get to see Sayang and the stupid headache still hanging around... Now Sayang is ironing clothes... So sian now... So sad as well... She is unwell and has to do housework and I cant help her... :(
Cant wait for tmr to come... Then can see, hold and kiss my Sayang again... I love her so much...
Anyway, came across this while surfing the net...
Extract from LadyAthena.com:
"When Libra and Virgo join together in a love match, it can be like puting two puzzle pieces together. Each locks into the other and sits comfortably in place. Both Signs seek security in partnership, and they share a love of beauty and culture. They can work together efficiently and smoothly because they desire similar rewards. The Virgo-Libra relationship may trickle along in the beginning, but it will rev up once both partners grow to respect one another.
Libra and Virgo both appreciate superficial pleasures, and they often enjoy collecting bone china, art or photographs. They also enjoy the theater and all forms of art. Practicality and pleasure are important to both Signs, and they compliment one another in many ways. Virgo appreciates Libra's charm and diplomacy, and Libra can even things out when Virgo doesn't get their way. Libra appreciates the Virgo love of order and the tangible rewards that come with it. Additionally, Libra and Virgo are willing and able to see the different sides of an argument, and together they make decisions only after examining the facts.
The Planet Venus rules Libra and Virgo is ruled by the Planet Mercury. Virgo is an excellent communicator, analyst and thinker. These partners share a love of good, honest conversation and exquisite taste. Libra, especially, is about balance, and both partners share pleasing personalities and a strong desire for balance. Together, they bring culture and beauty to the world around them. Also due to Venus's influence, Libra can be lazy, and both partners may be seen as snobs: Virgo with their high expectations and Libra guilty of an intellectual superiority complex."
This got me interested and I started to search for more horoscope compatibility... Sadly, they all say Virgo and Libra ain't meant to be tgt... Well, it just their opinion...
Sayang, lets prove them wrong and prove Lady Athena right... I Love You Sayang...
forever loving you...
7:41 pm
Worried
*sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz*
forever loving you...
6:06 pm
*sobz*
Its happening now again... Feeling so worried and sad... If there is anyway I can make you better, pls tell me, I'll do anything to make you feel better...
*sobz*
forever loving you...
6:03 pm
Missing you so much...
Puppy is missing kitty so much now...
*sobz*
He cant stop thinking about Kitty, he loves her so much...
forever loving you...
4:46 pm
From the bottom my heart, I love you...
Stevie Wonder - From the bottom my heart
me and my heart took a
vow from the start and a
vow to my heart i never break
seasons may come and
the seasons may go
but know through every time and space
my love will always stay forever and always
from the bottom of my heart, i love you
i can say these words to you without delay
if you're wondering just how long i'll love you
try forever that's how long i'll feel this way
me and my heart got a promise from the stars
that they'd keep this love burning endlessly
people will come just as people will go
but know whatever life has in store
through all eternity you will have my love for always
from the bottom of my heart, i love you
i can say these words to you without delay
if you're wondering just how long i'll love you
try forever that's how long i'll feel this way
yes, forever is how long my love will stay
forever is a long, long time but so what?
forever loving you...
4:42 pm
You are all I need, My Love, My Valentine
Martina McBride - My Valentine
If there were no words
No way to speak
I would still hear you
If there were no tears
No way to feel inside
I'd still feel for you
And even if the sun refuse to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart
Until the end of time
You're all i need
My love, my valentine
All of my life
I have been waiting for
All you give to me
You've opened my eyes
And showed me how to love unselfishly
I've dreamed of this a thousand times before
In my dreams i couldnt love you more
I will give you my heart
Until the end of time
You're all i need My love, my valentine
La da da
Da da da da
And even if the sun refuse to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart
Until the end of time
Cuz all i need
Is you, my valentine
You're all i need
My love, my valentine
forever loving you...
4:38 pm
Headache
Just got home from fetching my dad from work... The sun only made my headache worst... Panadol doesn't seem to be working... Need a kiss from Sayang to feel better... *Argh* neighbour decides to start his drilling now... *Owwwwwww*
forever loving you...
3:29 pm
20/08: Sunday Blues
So sian, cannot see, hold and kiss Sayang today... We both had to stay home... :(
Missing her so much already... Puppy misses his kitty so much...
I dread of every moment that I'm without you... I cannot live without you... I love you so much...
forever loving you...
2:12 pm
Sorry Sayang
I know I'm a bit irritating sometimes by nagging too much... I'm nagging cos I love you too much and I want nothing but the best for you... I love you so much, Sayang... I'll try and nag less, but it doesn't mean I love you any less, I'll only love you more so everyday... I LOVE YOU...
forever loving you...
2:09 pm
49th...
亲爱的,你把你的心交给了我,我答应你,我会好好的呵护它,珍惜它,保护它, 永远都会让它受到伤害。。。 我爱你。。。
forever loving you...
1:13 pm
Saturday, August 19, 2006
48 days le...
Sayang, 48 days le...
I'm loving you more so everyday... I just want to be with you every minute...
Nothing else matters anymore, except you... I'll love you always...
forever loving you...
9:40 pm
19/08: One competancy down, 6 more...
Went out to do my report, met up with Sayang... Then sent her home after that...
Came up with a theory today: terapin -> therapist -> tortoise... dun ask me why... it just rhymes... hehe
Now, got the msg that she xinku again... Very worried abt her, no mood to do anythg... (she's not answering my call, not replying my msg, i have a bad feeling its starting to happen again... haiz.. *sobz*) Must start making her the honey-cinnamon drink again...
Sayang, I'm very very worried.... I love you so much.... *sobz* please get well soon... I love you.... I love you so much.... How I wish I could take care of you...
forever loving you...
8:52 pm
Friday, August 18, 2006
Heartbroken puppy :'(
Just got the news that you are feeling xinku again... Haiz... *sobz*
forever loving you...
9:20 pm
18/08: Sian day...
Sayang late today+lunch different timing+going home early = Less time with Sayang... :'(
Sayang, sometimes you do things without considering my feelings... You know how sad it makes me? I'm not demanding anything, but at least next time, before you do anything, just think how I'll feel, ok? I love you so much......
forever loving you...
8:54 pm
Thursday, August 17, 2006
Relieved
Phew!! so you were just ironing your clothes... Glad that you are ok... Love you so much... *muacks*
forever loving you...
10:22 pm
17/08: more blisters
nothing much for the day, except Sayang and I and rest of class gathered for dinner... Sent sayang home after that...
Now, she's not reply me on MSN again... Getting very very worried...
Sayang, I love you... Nothing will break us apart...
forever loving you...
10:14 pm
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
VERY Restless and Worried
Just got the message that you are feeling sick... Feeling very restless and worried now... Sorry, I couldn't be with you Sayang... I love you so much... (praying that my Sayang will be ok...)
forever loving you...
11:04 pm
16/08: Love you times infinity...
Clinical Day 3, multiple blisters on foot, *ouch*, but nvm my beloved Sayang bought blister plasters for me... *muacks*
Didnt get to have lunch with Sayang today, sms her but no reply, was so worried until she finally replied my sms at 2.27pm...
Sayang, I was so worried lor... You want me to promise that I dun scare myself so much, but you also have to not give me the chance to scare myself... I love you, Sayang... Silence from you, esp after a long time I msged you, really get me very very worried... I love you so much... ~muacks~
forever loving you...
10:24 pm
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
15/08: day 2...
Clinical day 2, as usual, lotsa patients today, very very busy, got a blister on my feet le, learnt quite a lot, but basically my mind keep drifting off to Sayang...
After clinical, we went cine to take neoprints... a bit ex, but nvm, its taken with you, its more than worth it... Afterwhich, dinner at subway (they shld have a loyalty card or smthg) then sent Sayang home...
Sayang, I sorry that I'm made you worried last night. I know that the questions I've been asking seems like I'm being jealous, but pls dun get me wrong, I have faith in you, I love you and I know you love me too... I'm just being curious (I'm trying very hard to be less curious, cos curiosity kills the cat)... I love you, Sayang... I will always do...
forever loving you...
9:48 pm
Monday, August 14, 2006
Lost and lonely
Feeling so lost and lonely that you are not replying my sms-es... *sobz*
forever loving you...
9:49 pm
14/08: Not quite a good day...
Clinical started today, had to stand for whole day... not the reason why the day was not that good...
1) Waited for Sayang at Outram today, becoz she had to wait for WG and J at Clementi.
(Not that I mind waiting for you, but if it was me, I would not have bothered to wait, because I really can't wait to see you...)
2) Lunchtime was really hard to pass by, cos Sayang had to have her lunch at her pantry, and I had to have a lonely lunch...
(I guess maybe that's why I couldn't finish my lunch... But you finished yours...)
3) Went back to school library today, was intending to have dinner with her at Clementi, but Sayang's dad 'forces' her to attend a dinner.
(oh god, please dun play a prank on me now... I love her so much...)
4) Sayang wasn't returning my sms-es, becoz she was busy entertaining the guests.
(Everytime, you dun reply sms, my thoughts will run wild, I'll be so worried about you...)
All in all, not quite a good day... *sobz* (really crying)
(Maybe, its one of those days for me, a gloomy mood and lousy thoughts...)
Sayang, please don't get me wrong, I'm not jealous and not to make you feel bad. (I believe in honesty and feel that it is only fair to let you know how I feel.)
Sayang, I love you so much, and every thought of the times that you are not by my side would bring me much despair and sorrow... I couldn't imagine what my life will become without you by my side...
I love you so much so much... I dun ever want this to end...
*tears running down*
forever loving you...
9:26 pm
13/08: Sianz...
Another day without sayang... Sianz... Misses her so much... Anyway clinical starting tmr le, dun really know what to expect....
There is nothing I wouldn't give up, just to be with you... Sayang, I love you...
forever loving you...
9:24 pm
Sunday, August 13, 2006
12/08: A whole day with my Sayang
Spent a whole day with Sayang today... In the morning, Sayang had her NP duathlon (she came in 5th)... Was quite worried about her, but I'm glad that she completed the race safely...
Then we had dinner and waited for the fireworks display at the Waterfront... The fireworks was beautiful, but what makes it memorable was that Sayang was in my arms the whole time... Sayang,I'll never forget this day...
Sayang, 原我们的爱情烟花一样,多么的灿烂夺目,但不会像它一样的短暂。。。 我好爱你。。。
forever loving you...
5:36 pm
11/08: 40 days le...
End of Sem 1 School phase today... Met Sayang early today to study Socio before the test... After the test, Ms Am organised a 'Fun Run' for us to mark the last day of school for the sem... Clocked 8:12 for 1.6km(think it is my bestest since my combat days)... Sent Sayang home after the event and when she sent me a sms that she misses me already, I was so touched (love you too sayang...)
Sayang, I'll always be your lil puppy... *muacks* I love you...
forever loving you...
5:27 pm
Thursday, August 10, 2006
10/08: *muacks*
Went town with Sayang to study socio today... Spent the morning studying at Mac {feel a bit bad, cos i shifted the chair to be comfortable reaching the table, but i didn't realise that the couch was linked to the seat behind, ended up pulling those two kids further away from their table, then tried to inconspicuously push back the couch... =p)
Then had lunch at KFC, where their Iced Tea tasted like Iced Lychee Lemon tea... hm... then went McCafe cos Sayang wanted to get Ice Blend Vanilla, turn out Ice Blended Vanilla was blended with coffe and Sayang bought the Ulti Cheesecake also... Hm... she was really trying to fatten me up... Then we went running along Sayang's sat race route... hm... think i am starting to run a tat faster (tks Sayang, i love you...) Then had dinner at Marina SCFC, then i sent her home... *muackz* already missing my lil kitty already, cant wait for tmr... {sianz, headache's back again, i guess its by the caffeine withdrawal and from thinking my Sayang too hard}
Conlusion: KFC @ Suntec blacklisted; McCafe Ice Blened Vanilla blacklisted
There's nothing else I wanna do except to hold you in arms...
I love you...
*muackz*
forever loving you...
9:45 pm
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
09/08: I'm going crazy
Crap, I want to get out of this moody feeling soon.
Miss you so much, and its doesn't help that my handphone has chosen this time to tell "pls clear msgs"... Every messages I viewed and deleted only pierces my heart and misses you more...
*muackz*
forever loving you...
9:55 pm
09/08: Tears from missing you...
I keep thinking of you... Slipped into one of those mood again, seems like everything and everyone is against me and I've let them down, really need you by my side now, only you can make everything right.... Tears are no longer under my command anymore... Miss you dearly, Sayang...
I love you...
forever loving you...
8:56 pm
09/08: Miss you like crazy...
Received your msgs that you are having headache, and my heart starts aching... Yet, I can't do anything... Haiz...
Its been almost 24hours since I last held you hand and hold you in my arms... I'm missing you like crazy...
I love you...
forever loving you...
7:30 pm
09/08: Miss u...
Wont get to see her today, hope she'll enjoy herself at NDP (and Sharon better keep her promise)...
Sianz, yet another day of not seeing you... Actually its only half a day and I cant stand it anymore... I love you so much... I need you by my side, I'll go crazy missing you... Haiz... *muackz*...
forever loving you...
1:01 pm
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
08/08: I LOVE U
Finally MRS over, left only Socio on Fri... It happened once today (just before MRS). Haiz...
After MRS, we got to know that AKK actually sms-ed to date Josh out for coffee !!!!! (WAHAHAHAHA)
Sayang wanted to play bowling but we ended in town searching for some ref bks. Finally found them at Borders and Sayang finally get to use up her 10dollars borders voucher... Then Sayang had her dinner at Subway... Afterwhich, she bought some hair accessories and wanted to take neoprint, but I really wasn't in the mood (esp with the headache)... Sorry Sayang.... Then sent her home and she had to take cab back from clementi...
I wont be able to see you again tmr... *sobz* Dunno how I'll spend the day, will be missing you so much...
I LOVE YOU...
forever loving you...
11:40 pm
07/08: AnP test... Finally... Sayang!!!
AnP test today... W.t.h most of prac stuff came out for mcq, think a bit gone liao, max i think B+ only... Then I sent Sayang home... She got giddy on the way home and didnt want to get any dinner... But then I managed to get her a Lian Rong bao (How can dun eat anythg when you sick?)
You keep promising me that you will take care of yourself, but yet... How can I dun get worried? I love you so much, you know? There will be times when I'm not by your side, you really have to learn to take GOOD care of yourself.
I love you SO SO SO SO SO SO MUCH... *muackz*
forever loving you...
11:29 pm
06/08: 2nd day without you... Dying...
Second day in a row that I wont get to see you... :( Feels like infinity to me... Cant wait for monday...
When it happened today, it lasted longer. I was really really worried. What would I ever do without you?
Then there were moments when you were not at the com. It really scared me. Its moments like these that makes me love you even more...
forever loving you...
11:20 pm
Sunday, August 06, 2006
05/08: Heartaches~
Didn't get to see my Sayang today, she had to stay at home by the order of her mom... But we managed to msn for almost the whole day... Studied so hard for AnP test on Monday, but I feel like I've forgotten everything as I type this entry... Sianz...
Sayang, during the 50+mins of blank space, do you know how worried I was? My mind was in total mess when you didn't reply me.
I wasn't able to do anything else except to pray for you. I really felt like just rushing down to your house to look after you.
You know that when you finally replied me, tears swelled up in my eyes? My heart aches so much whenever I know that you are suffering, especially when I am not by your side. Sometimes I really feel so useless... There's nothing else I can do except to ask you to rest early...
I'm so sorry, Sayang... Although I've promised you that I'll always be there for you, I couldn't... Please let me know if you are not well, dun feel guilty that you'll make me worry...
Sayang, I not telling you this to make you feel guilty, its beacause I want you to know tha I really really love you...
forever loving you...
1:32 am
Friday, August 04, 2006
01/08 - 04/08: Loving you...
01/08: Sayang was still sick. Happened a few times today... Totally heart broken to see her suffer like that... Is there a cure?
She was supposed to attend a race briefing at Ngee Ann Poly today, but lesson ended early and she was still feeling under the weather. So I brought her home to have some sleep before sending her off to Clementi. She bought Coke trying to help with the headache, but ended up half a bottle ended up spilling in her bag (*sayang*)...
Stupid new bakery at Khatib dunno how to label price tag properly... Waste my money...
I can spend the whole day holding you in my arms... I love you...
02/08: Went to meet Sayang at J.east this morning. Reached school early today, we managed to study a bit before she started feeling very under the weather again... (heartache) We ended up at the locker area where she had some rest on my lap...
After Socio, we went to Taka to get 2bottles of liang teh (1 bottle eventually went to her brother). Then we went to Far East to get some stuff for Sayang's project. After Sayang's dinner, I sent her back to Clementi. While waiting, Sayang's little brother appeared and I have to leave first before he spotted us. Didn't get to kiss her goodbye...
She keep telling me stuff, but dun worry, I love you with all my heart...
03/08: Met Sayang at J.east again this morning... Reached school early to study... Had lunch at the grand stand... It happened again when she was resting... (Haiz...)
Really feels like kicking our RP teacher's ass... So what if we are together? Does it bother him so much that he must disturb us so often?
After lesson, sent her back to Clementi and bought dinner. While waiting for bus, her other brother appeared (what are the chances?) Luckily we were hiding in the shade behind a stand and I spotted him first...
No matter what pple says, I just want you to know, my love for you is true...
Sayang one month le and I still cant believe that we are together. I must have done something real good in my previous life to deserve someone like you. I love you so much...
04/08: Met Sayang at Clementi today. She forgot her lanyard today and had to return home to get it... The trip to school was pretty irritating with the M1 adverd playing at every stop...
RP prac was a waste of time and the teacher told us that out of the 7 papers he had marked, 2 failed. Sayang, dun worry, you wont be one of them...
Then Sayang had her dinner at AMK today. She told me that it was the most value for money wanton soup she ever had... Afterwhich I sent her to J.east only(Sorry), because I know that I wont be 3rd time lucky...
Just now, during our MSN chat, I believed that she blackout for the 40+ mins. It made me really really worried. It also made me realised how deeply I love her.
Oh how my heart aches whenever I see you suffer... What would I do without you? Sayang, promise me that you'll take good care of yourself when I not around you...
Looking back at our memories, its almost all the same, but I dun mind. For just being around you, taking care of you, I contended... I love you...
forever loving you...
10:56 pm
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
28/7 - 31/7: Loving you more day by day
28/7: Went to school early with Sayang today to help her revise for her AnP Prac test. Told her all the qns and turns out our teacher too lazy to change qns (She got full marks!! Yeah!!)
Our Stupid RP lecturer is damn irritating. Keep annoying Sayang and me just because we are together... (I think he is jealous...)
Then we went Funan to get Sayang's laptop... Turns out the laptop wasn't really ready for collection and we had to wait for almost an hour to get it... Walked around Funan a bit and Sayang bought a new laptop case... and she eyed herself a Puma bag(birthday present?)... Anyway, after collection, I sent her to Clementi (didn't wait for bus with her... *Sorry*)...
I love you so much...
29/7: Sayang came my house to study again. Everything was fine until after lunch. Twice it happened (My heart aches so much everytime I see her suffer... I love her so much), and we f-kiss for the first time. (Turns out to be our both 1st f-kiss as well). Then sent her off to take a cab home(where her mom starts summoning her around again)...
You are the best thing that has ever happened to me... When I'm with you, everything just feels so right...
30/7: Sayang couldn't get out of the house today and had to study for her Rad Phy at home (which she didn't get to do much because of her mom... *Sayang*) My day didn't turn out so well either... No matter what I'm doing, I keep thinking of her... I just feel so lost and empty when she's not with me...
Nothing could keep you out of my mind... I love you so much...
31/7: The day of our Rad Phy paper. Met Sayang early today to do some last minute revision. Turns out she wasn't feeling her best due to lack of sleep, but she managed to press on(I'm so proud of her). Then after our AnP lecture, it happened again... Twice (*heartache*)... Luckily I was there and she managed to get well enough to do the Rad Phy paper(which turns out to be quite a surprisingly and strangely easy paper)...
After the paper, we went with the gang to KTV to do a bit of de-stressing... Was a bit high at first, but started to feel a bit sian after a while... Sayang made me sang a few songs and our duet Wu Ding turns out to be a disaster (I keep going out of tune)... Then we had to leave early as Sayang need to reach Clem b4 840 to catch her transport... (*sorry* I could not even send you to Clem today...)
Its almost a month since we've been together and I'm loving you more so everyday. I want to make you the happiest woman in the world. Sayang, I feel like I'm the luckiest man in the world. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH...
Promise me something: Let me be part of all your suffering and sorrow... Don't ever keep it to yourself, let me share it with you... I love you...
forever loving you...
12:17 am